Well... All fun things will come to an end...

Going home tomorrow~
Christmas has been fun and new! Few pics to go with it:

snowing like crazy, n this is a crazily huge Christmas tree

Christmas tree in 28 Barnfield Drive

warm Christmas in winter... ^^

'lighted up' the Christmas atmosphere

In the Chichester Cathedral

Lovely painted glass in the cathedral

Christmas Tree in Chichester Town.

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year, yallz! Signing off, with love~

我忍。。。

寂寞的圣诞。 不明是你不醒目， 还是我放不开。。。

i choose to believe...

I have faith in you.

I am Helios! no.. perhaps Ra! erm... Apollo?

My sis and I are currently in Chichester, West Sussex, UK.
And IT IS COLD!!! We brought sunshine though, it seems.
Unlike in Frankfurt, Germany, which snowed like noone's business, Chichester stopped snowing when we arrived.
Well, I'll walk you through the journey.

check out the snow shape frost on the plane window! this was when we were happily sitting for nearly 14 hours, mostly with daylight outside, towards Heathrow-London.

the display showing info on Heathrow, now showing Frankfurt!
Dreadful display (esp for sis) when we had to be diverted to Frankfurt, Germany due to airport closure in London.
Sis was happy to get an extra cop from another country to fill her passport, what she didn't expect was getting stuck there for more than 2 days!

"imprinting yourself however small you are"~ Juin. Might as well take it as a blessing in disguise and have a lil walk around

~snowdrops are falling in my hair~ It was snowing like crazy in Frankfurt. Was really awesome to see different snowflakes stuck to me gloves and me hair!

my sis and I in a mall with no shops open but xmas deco everywhere. We were walking to the Vinex Market(hope i spelt it right) or Christmas market (to be safe) and ended up in here due to boots with heels, d ones we were wearing when we got dumped out of the plane with no luggage.

my sis... In Chichester by now, this is in front of the town cathedral.

Chichester-Brighton-Chichester... with d lovebirds~ o.O (Sometimes, would rather walk alone...)

Well, it is sunny now, but daylight is only bout 9 to 4, so we didn't bring along much sunshine, but we seem to did stop the snow. *hmmm... are we or am i an incarnation of some Weather Goddess?* LOL

hiding

fingers playing through the keyboard
words worn with veils
snow floats by on tropical mind
yet never ever land
for landing means a touch of warmth
and melting follows after
but why the fear of what shall be
noone ever knows
if water seeps or flows to sea
or can other way it goes...

spiders spun the veil once worn
her spinning way too gifted;
awaiting the moment of breaking dawn
hoping the spell be lifted

was it a bad choice?

to leave when hell is let loose?
to jeopardise what might spell my future?
to sacrifice for someone i hold dear?
to smile when frown is what is expected of you?
come to think about it, what is the worst that can happen???
It'll just take longer...
someone once told me: "It is never the wrong way, just the longer way."
Nice quote!

prologue or epilogue?

finals has ended... holiday is beginning...
So, is this a beginning or an ending?
Just so you know, the semester has been quite interesting.
With dramas and rendezvous... stress and pressure... fun and laughters... frowns and tears...
But Aal Izz Well!

Life moves on to a next phase, hopefully even more awesome than before.

Sometimes, i just wish certain friendships stay strong, if not stronger. But I'm glad I made more along the way too...

If I ever am, I'm sorry...

I have 2 choices now, a long term plan, or a short term plan.
Both might not work, but at least I have done my part.
However, I hope i never have to use any of it.
I felt my needs to do it, as a friend, but only if you are willing to listen...
Please make it my last resort. Not me resorting to it.

Note to self: Juin, never ever be a hypocrite, if you consciously know it!

And to my family and friends, the title says it all.

imoto-chan nippon ni iku...

my lil sis just flew to japan, bout 2 hrs ago... still thousand km above me while i'm writing this.

'Nice' send-off for her... Daijoubu ne, imoto-chan! Most important thing is that u have fun! which i know u will... ^^

'Excellent' timing, all the incidents! 

I wonder if it is because of both of you that i keep defending myself and building walls around me before anything happens. Always freaking out and keeping it safe. 

Or basically could be just myself! cos sis ain't having a prob with it.

A candle put out...

Life is so fragile~
Rest in peace, Kong Seng...

Just a dream...

Sam Tsui & Christina Grimmie

Can't get it outta my head... <3

sometimes, i wish...

they can read certain things that i am thinking of... bottling up feelings is so not healthy...

gomenasai, otosan, okasan~
私はあなたからお金を費やしてのいい感じていない

What a Day!!!

Guess what happen the day before my first paper for finals? I dropped my (or more accurately my friend's) handphone into the toilet!!! Retrievable?? NO! huhu~
My friends and I did try to fish it out, until a point where we cannot even see it anymore, and calls are not going through to my phone no more...
Alas, all attempts failed, even lowering my arm in it... GAAAAH!
What was bothering me was that the phone is not officially mine, lent it from a good friend of mine... and... MY CONTACTS!!! gone, down the drain!!!
FYI again, it is the day before my first paper... = ="
Distracted if i am disconnected (even my friend knew I would be), I decided to retrieve my number straight away from any nearby service centre. Later, wrote the wrong order for my friend's meal, causing unnecessary embarrassment when we called the waiter over and he showed us the wrong order i wrote in my own handwriting...
Done with that, report to my mom, of course! Got a lecture... Had a long chat with sis too. Done with going through the contacts I have as soft copy, saving them in my new sim, now to buck up for my paper in less than 18 hrs before stepping into the exam hall... Hah, what a day!!

Well, best of luck to all my mateys who are facing their finals as well. May all of us pass with colours, if not flying ones. *wink*

Reminder to self: Curiosity can hurt.

contagiousness of your energy

Stress or any emotional output from a person is actually contagious. which means any positive and happy feelings is able to influence others as well... =)
However, since the finals is around the corner, i emphasize more on the output of stress and other negative energies.
I just wanna say that i hope i don't stress anyone out, 'cos if i do, we will stress each other out.

The worst thing now is, i still cant get my study mood on, and can still be easily distracted by any source of entertainment.
Just so you know, i just went out for a movie 2 days back! which was a week away from my first paper!!!
Can't resist the magical world of wizardry and witchcrafts, if you know what i mean...
Gaaaah! and viewing back videos of 'whose line is it anyway', snippets of Neil Patrick Harris in 'How I met your mother', etc...
Stress is a must when it can being drive and will to do something.  I am wishing for stress, but what i got is not the kind of stress i am wishing for~ do you get what i mean? 'cos i think I'm starting to blab and not make sense to even myself anymore....
(this is what 5-days-from-exam-without-any-preparation can do to you)

all kinds of everything

remind me of you~

Study week~ is it?

Naaahh... i have been doin everything except the necessary.
More like Enjoy n Indulge Week~

Taman Pertanian trip with coursemates:

Watched a movie: Life As We Know It

Went for MSK - Minggu Seni Kreatif at 6th college.

Went and support my cousin Bro in the Hottest Hunk 2010.

Went to Shobana's Deepavali Open House! Thx to Shob n her family for having us!!

 sorry roommie mel (if u ever read this), coke blocked ur face... n it was d only pic we took tat time... T-T

Happy Belated Birthday to Shob's brother, Harvind. Surprise celebration on Diwali. =)

Next! will be going to Aunt's place for the weekend, most probably~

Now you know what I browse on the Net.

credits to google, tumblr and youtube.

*particularly liking the last one! XD*

Shern!!!

お誕生日おめでとう! 생일 축하! 生日快乐！

Happy Birthday, Dear Sis!

We should take more selcas! XD

Pheewww...

*Lifting stone*
*Throwing stone off the cliff*
*Sigh of relief*
*Turn back and walk away*
*Smile to self*

Grateful~

For the friends that i have...
Who have all this while been supportive of me, offering me kind gestures, gentle reminders, harsh wake-up calls, mature advices, comforting words, loyal services, fun & entertainment, attentive ears, nanny-ish nagging, compliments, gossips, scoldings...


I am thankful that my circle of friends has always been there for me throught thick and thin; naive or knowledgable, rough or gentle, annoying as they are, hilarious as they can be, serious or silly, i believe they stand true to themselves and to the friendship we have.


I hope I am, to them, what they are to me.


The truth is, everyone will hurt you; you just need to find those worth suffering for. ~Anonymous


 And i guess i have found mine.

EFF!!

I did NOT just say the F word, tqvm.
EFF stands for Eco Film Fest. Held in FEA, UM, KL.My regrets of not bringing my camera in the afternoon EFF Power Down (concert of sort). But these are a few pic from the night event, the EFF Music Fest.Me, under the EFF banner and this color-changing thingy.

The friends i went with

Eco Drum Circle - they played with dustbins and glass bottles and tins, etc... ^^

Aizat Amdan

Jeremy from Red FM!!! *melt*

I missed alot of assignment, fyp, project, revision time... But...

"Time enjoyed wasting ain't time wasted!"

If only more UM students went. They are missing out alot, not going...

EFF is still on til tomorrow.. as in TODAY!! the 17th!!

So to readers out there who hasn't gone to this fantastic event, do chill out at FEA, UM.

There are games and freebies, food & drinks, cool performances, of course, not to miss out on the local and international eco-film screening at the FEA halls..

You can check out the schedule at ecofilmfest.my. (coz i did my stalking too before i went)

Random:

Some people are so concern with national events like the Adam Lambert concert, protesting and all, so was kinda expecting them to do the same at FEA, coz we had smokin hot ladies performing and live bands jammin' and live singing!

alone in my little mousedeer...

is where i feel nearest to home.

sorry...

i should have done better...
sorry... is all i can say.

Arrr...

Mutiny! Walk the plank, you nutcase!

学习中。。。

有些事情难放下， 并不代表放不下， 而是慢一点放下而已。^^

祝福你。。。

pondering...

Honesty is the best policy!



Is it??

3 am... counting sheeps...

Or counting pictures to be exact.

Don't feel like dozing off, yet no mood to finish the storyboard assigned to me.

But yet, i was able to come up with this:

What a trip it was! Had me aching for days after. It did make me, as the theme is, 'go back to the past'. There are loads of history and past experiences to ponder and reflect on. There are loads more future to comtemplate about. So... how do we go about this? I need a Guru!

*being emo*

A hipocrite, that is what i am.

sorry

i felt i had ruined a friendship.
Did i?
The long talk, i'd hope it'd turn out for the better...
Now i'm doubting my own actions and words.

miss u...

i do, bro! wish u were here...
nice chat though!

2NE1- Go Away

loving the choreography!

UMS

1 lonely moon, so way up high;
2 sticks in the sea, hear them sigh;

3 lights aglow, we say goodbye...

my getaway

my very own

Canon Powershot A3100 IS

Guess which colour i got. ^^

in and out

never lasting...

or am i just bluffing myself? can one do that? lie to yourself?

but then again, i have been taught, nothing last.
Attachment means suffering. And i am...

Dropped my Jaw!!

I got this!!
From (as on envelope): Micky & NeeNee, Hung Tong, Louise, Elensha, Shob, Key Key, Moon, Xin Min, Jen, Alice, Ang, Pak Koon, Chai & Mel. <3
Thanks a lot u guys! This is the biggest amount i have seen for a present! (Counting those i bought and shared)
But it is the thought that counts. I was expecting a watch (thanks to the sly Hung Tong).
But OMG!! Cant believe u guys actually took the effort to bring everyone together for this. Thanks loads!! ^^

This is an angpau i got from my parents when i first came to UM.

Added in, total amount i have is RM 610!!

So... what shall i do with it??

Choices in mind: Handphone, Camera, Mp3, car Mp3, a new pair of specs perhaps...

Gosh!! Clever them, now the headache of getting myself a present is on me!! LOL...

Btw, mid term test in 12 hours for Instrumentation & Informatics for Ecology subject.
Better head back to the books.. or slides to be exact.

LOL (Lots of Love),
Juin

Happy Merdeka 2010

Scared myself silly hearing the alarm rang at 8.30am and thinking i woke up late for class at 9am. Even loudly told my roommate/coursemate, Alice, that we were late for class.
Mel, my other roommie, who was also sleeping, mumbled: "Juin, cuti la..."
It is the 31st of August 2010.
I fell right back to sleep.

Happy Independence Day, Malaysia!

101+1

Thanks Ashree, you might never read this, but still i'd like to say thanks.
To know that a friend values me as a good listener.
You have been a close and mature friend. I pray for your health and wellbeing. May you overcome your "invisible" obstacles and come out more stable and stronger.

To all my Muslim friends. Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri! Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

Also, would like to take this post to congratulate my high school, SMK CHWS, KT, for making it into the Malaysian Book of Record for the longest chained-message; length of chained messages, numbers of messages and number of chains used!! AWESOME!!!
To teacher Lucy and Mr Seah, Happy Retiring!

101

Friends don't let friends do stupid things.... alone.

Never apologize for saying what you feel, that's like saying "Sorry, for being real.."

*i just love reading quotes online*

suspense...

...building...

life has been swell. I found my favourite watch back, got to meet my sis n her bf, chris...
coming week ll be hectic, up til now life's still good.

But now...another chapter...

Pretentious or true? Or just my view?
It is me or is it you?
One-eye view or heart will do?

How the world is about perception.
How my truth can be your deception.
And some things are plain emotion.

Am i building a wall around me? Am i??
Am i sealing my emotions? 'cause hardly anythin gets to me now... and i wonder if it's you.
Does palm lines show your destiny? 'cause mine ain't coming true...just yet...
=)


p/s: a full cow. will it always work??

i knew you would come back to me

My precious Alba...

I found you!!!

Have a little faith... So true... =)

me like this..

"The longer i live, the more i realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude to me, is more important than facts. it is more important than the past, than education, than money, than circumstances, than failures, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, gifted ability or skills. It will make or break a company, a church, a home.

The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace from that day. We cannot change our past, we cannot change the fact that people will act in certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing that we can do is play on the one string that we have, and this string is.. Attitude. I am convinced that life is ten percent what happens to me and ninety percent how i react to it. And so it is with you... We are in charge of our Attitudes."

- Charles Swindoll

life unlived

when night comes and aim is lost,
illusions were true and it ain't yours,
sail forth, sail through the seven seas,
stars show a path u shall not miss,

if smooth were the sand, feel through thy toes,
too smooth the way thy feet shall go,
lil pebbles along the way,
to carve in kindness, there they shall stay,
silver lining, every cloud own,
gold lining not made known.

Me love the way this poem rhymes,
the way me love the grand clock chimes.
3 clicks the shoes, home shall i be,
can't wait the day 'Win' shall be me,
apparations of children climbing the tree,
oh, that's actually my sisters and me!

Life's too short, candle burnt, brief,
Fear not to death but life unlived.

what if..

you are the second option chosen.

Congratulations!!

To all my seniors graduating this week, especially tomorrow! FoS seniors, おめでとう!!축하 해요!! Félicitations!! Tahniah!! Congratulations!! 恭喜!!

It has been hectic this week. Events clashing all at one go. If only i can split into few other me-s.
People tell me "Follow your heart",
but when my heart is split into pieces, which piece should i follow?

Btw, few out of many symptom of gastritis:
1. Pain is usually in the upper central portion of the abdomen (pit of the stomach)
2. Gastritis pain occurs in the left upper portion of the abdomen and in the back. the pain seem to go straight through a person as it travels from the belly to the back.
3. Bloating
4. Feeling of fullness or burning in the upper part of the belly.

uh oh...

the world is about perception

Hurt is a perception.
It is self-inflicted.
Noone can hurt you but yourself.

dedicated to friends who are dealing with their own demon.

AWESOME!

Yasser Sakimehr - Warrior of Light.

From Pusat Kebudayaan.

Performance during the launch of FESKUM '10.

.

exhausted. fullstop.

Mandate? Define mandate.

Kinda confused.
To be fair or to be equal?
What is your true aim?
Will it actually affect what you are fighting for?
Will there always be quality candidates for you to put up there?
Does the statistics show the truth?
How honest are you to say you have received the mandate of the whole community?
To fight for everything, sacrificing everything in between.
I ask you once again, what is your true aim?

したくない

it turned out my last post was just the beginning of the string of bad luck i was gonna have.
again, gomenasai, otosan, okasan! hontoni gomen! gomen ne, imoto-chan! oneechan kore ga okoru koto wa shitakunai...

hopefully things are ok now. I won't ask for much. Just would like to have my days as usual, with a few ups and bumps in between, as usual. To have me carving smiles and laughter on people around me as well as myself. =) Is that still too much to ask? Okey, i'll take whatever is thrown at me. ^^ BRING IT ON!!! XP

when things can't get any worse, it turns for the better. =)
2 days before sem reopens, it was hell for me. *nearly hell
2 opening days of the sem, things were swell.
guess life needs some downs for us to appreciate even a lil ups in it.

new semester, i wonder if there's any new surprises this year.
like what happened to me last semester.
It was a new year, 2010. I wrote a shoutout, wondering exactly the same thing.
Voila! look where i am now...

already in my 3rd yr. reminiscing bout 1s yr, graduation and everything in between...

string of bad luck...

with noone to run to...

am i? are you? will we? ever?
is it really that hard?

to all who were there for me, thank you.
i'm not sure when you guys will ever read this, but just so you know, i was touched and thankful.
It was meaningful, the friendship and love shown.
quote,"Do you need me to accompany you?", "Juin, do you need a lawyer?",
doing lil cheer-you-up moves...
simple phrases, but i felt home in it.
I can't imagine when it ends, will we still remain as friends?
I hesitated when i deciding i'm in or out, I pray that i remain myself all the way.
Now in it, i'd like to know, have i changed?

May this be a start of something grand and extravagant, something jaw-dropping and memorable.
It's getting late, i'm rambling already.
signin off.

Juin needs

a friend who meets up with her, ask, "How are you so far?" and when she answers, "Fine! *smile*", this friend will give her a hug and tell her, "Don't worry, everything will be okey."

I had just costs both my parents their blood and sweat. Hontoni Gomenasai!!!

quotes...

True friends know your weaknesses, but show you your strengths.
Friends are the family we choose for ourselves.

Home is where I can look and feel ugly and enjoy it.

It will turn out good in the end, if it's not good, it isn't the end.

I'd like to think that other people are the ones who screw up my life. But really, it's me.

You never know how strong you are, until being strong is the only choice you have.

If you want the rainbow, you've gotta put up with the rain.

My head says, "Who cares?" But then my heart whispers, "You do, stupid..."

Don't make decisions when you're mad, and don't make promises when you're happy. (So true..)

LQTM (Laughing Quietly To Myself) is the new LOL.


If you're reading this...
Congratulations, you're alive.
If that's not something to smile about, then I don't know what is.

MHS and a new semester~

It is this time of the year again, where new students flock into campus, and get the shock treatment. Mild ragging so-call-it.
We had a speech from Tan Sri Arshad Ayub this morning. Inspiring speech! And he just mentioned that we are only a quarter of his age. Impressive long speech from someone that old! I might be senile or dead already by that age! LOL... might be!
Anyway, it was a happy moment to be in. It is like a candle burning from both ends, it doesn't last but it does give out the brightest light! =)
*group pic*

Time does fly, distracted i am.
Why i do not know, for what i feel is foreign to me.
I need an ear or a shoulder, please... =S

I dunno how to deal with it, that's why i seem to push it away. sorry~

Tanjoubi Omedetou~

Thanks loads to my fun-loving, laughter-as-fuel, hardworker-bee MPMs gang!

Thanks loads to Malar, Chai, CPK as well!!

Also to Alice and Shob for the lovely day out!

And last but not least, thanks to my cutie-pie aunt, Cherry Lay Nee and of course, my pretty, adventure-lover sis!!

Not to be missed, touched by all the wishes that made my day!!

roommie's call from India~ wishes on facebook and messages~

Appreciate it, meant a lot to me!!! *grinning*

More to come! Thanks to my beloved family n my gangie-4eva best mates!!

Surprises or not, presents or not, treats or not, i had fun today!!

YEAH!! double digits ain't that bad!! The 2 big 2s!! XP