will i??

more bumps on the road now... tougher road to walk on...
seem misty as well... hard to see clearly...
heavier load to carry... more burden to bear...
path is still long... no time to smell the roses...
but still...i...
with this situation, will i ever reach my destination??
or should i say, will i reach there..alive??
is there someone who'll guide me?
is there a person who'll remind me??
is there noone who can help me??
or am i too absorbed in my own world, too busy feeling sorry for myself,
that i didn't notice the roses blooming around me...
that i couldn't see all the hands reaching out to me...
that i never really appreciate how blue the sky is...
that i missed out on all the smiles and laughs inviting me to join them...
i hardly ever feel this way, but the way this is going,
my own flaws and faults will drag me down halfway through my journey...
is Time really flying pass me? or is it just me who is not flying with It??
who can answer all these for me???
*wondering...*
i guess... only me...