i made a change, did i??

Program Kesukarelawan ke Kuala Gula, Perak.
Mangrove planting.
16 June 2010, 10am.
33 participants with about 10 Sahabat Hutan Bakau.
1000 seedlings in about 1 hour plus.

Planting...

After planting...

Boatride back...

Stop at Taiping...

I feel good!

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21 yrs, 11 months and 17 days old.
feels the world is still quite cold.
Yanni's fingers sliding across the keys,
"Until the Last Moment"
She is worried there might be mind readers,
for they shall see her world,
of silly thoughts swirling in visions,
of yesterdays and tomorrows,
where fairy tales come true,
and movies come alive,
they shall see soot-covered snow,
floating in the summer air,
for the real world she is in,
confuses her.
She misses clips from old memories,
where white was white and none in betweens,
she wonder if there's an oasis in the barren land,
with angles tickling each other,
laughter and smiles abundant,
as pure as the glow of the full moon,
although her books til now,
has taught her it was a halloween party they were having.
The songs she use to hear,
is now Almost a Whisper...

Inspiring~

Just back from a learning-interacting trip to UniMAP, USM and UTAR, Kampar.
It was inspiring. Challenge of sort. A comparison and a self-motivation.
An eye-opener.
Now, there are more things to be grateful for. More contented with what i have.
More appreciation for things a took granted for.
Now, inspired to do more for those who had given me their trust and support.
Having sparks of ideas now and then. Knowing i can achieve more, knowing i am in a position which enables me to achieve more, knowing i can fully utilise my position to achieve more.
However, there are somethings i am worried about.
Time is short.
I am inspired to help and contribute, but short term aint my game.
There is too many things to be done. Too much that can be done. And i do not like planning too short a term, it is too wasteful and heartbreaking to see all the effort and cost put into something that could worth so much more.
But should I join in the short term since it benefits too, eventhough in a smaller scale?
I wish so much that we have more mature undergrads which will put aside differences to achieve something that is far greater than our ego, far more useful than sulking, far more noble and nation-building than mere campus politics.
There are never wrong in ideas, it is just a matter of accepting the fact that we are different and unique in our own special way. If acceptance is achieved, creativity flows, amazing stuff can be made real.
Mentality and vision plays a big role in achieving the i'm-possible.
When will we?
I love the fact that i can make a change, challenged by the fact that change do not come easy.
May there be more changes to come for my campus!

somehow.. i didn't expect it to happen

It is so far from what i always aim to be.
I failed to maintain it.
It is not easy to make it stay the way it is.
But this is too far out!!
I knew it would happen
but I can't even believe it happened.
Drowning in my own pain, disappointment, heartbreak...

pondering~

life has been passing me by...
what have i contributed to people who have given their trust to me?
i still feel i havent done enough.
Have i carve enough smiles on people i love?
Have i brought laughter to people i care?
What bout those that needs smiles and laughter?
What bout those that needs a helping hand?
*Pondering*

Lea Salonga

Plenary Hall, KLCC
8.30pm
22/5/10

I got to go!!! Free tickets!! Thx to my uncle Wa. Thx to mom as well.
Rating: Amazing! Superb!!
Her voice is as huge as d hall we were sitting in! <3

I have experienced a very civilised concert. Next is to try the screaming-fanatic type of concert!! LOL

scarred~

i just read an email from a lecturer of mine.
like a break-up letter it was.
stating she cannot take me in as one of her FYP student.
*ask me why*
because i am a chinese.
someone(chinese) 'attacked' her, showing her a very rude behaviour.
caused her to somehow link it to a race, my race! n stereotyped me, or chinese on the whole.
GOSH! *crying* hurt, by her comments...
hurt by the fact that i got rejected due to my race.
hurt by the fact that she got hurt by someone from my race.
hurt by the fact that there is such person that associates attitude problem with race.
hurt by the fact that in reality, there is no such thing as 1Malaysia.
as long as RACE exists, we shall never unite...
open-minded indeed eh... how dare you claim yourself open-minded after coming back from a country u think has mould u into an 'open-minded' person when once u r back in your home country u pinpoint people by their skin colour!!

*i regretted sending d reply to my lecturer.*