Laws of attraction indeed!

Going to school feeling more positive.
Getting things done kinda according to plan, which, thank goodness, I have.
Aaaaand... A student messaged me and told me I'm in his top 5 list of favourite teachers!
Another teacher in school complimented me for my seem-to-be-adapting behaviour and attitude!
*basking in the proud moment*
**Power UP**

Start anew

Things have been crazy negative these few weeks.
The overall atmosphere wasn't good.
I have not been able to make it to house visits to my students' homes, choosing nap over my kids.
Never have I thought I can call their homes and have a chat over the phone too!
Will start doing that starting today. Might be able to meet some on the way to school or back perhaps.
Charts and others will come later, for now.
Do what I can, and try to think out of the box.
Will start anew for my kids. ^^

Message from an experienced teacher

Well girl, I love my job. Believe in my ability. Received many awards throughout my teaching life.
Don't have too  high expectations of my students.
I don't believe passing exams and strings of A's as ultimate aim.
They are not statistics but human.
If they still fail, I say to myself I've done my best, the rest is their effort.
Some never learn anything so can't push.
Am not super teacher.
Just do my utmost best but if that is not enough, I can do no more.

P/S: I love you, mom! <3

When the mundane gets poisonous in my head

There is no more progress to see...
There are no small achievements for me in class...
The same bunch of kids are curious, the same group of kids are disruptive, the same faces are apathetic...
I'm constantly expecting changes, maybe that's why I am hurting on the inside...now...
I have learned my lesson that expectations lead to disappointment, but as a teacher, how can I not expect anything out of every class I go to?!
I do not know what I need to get out of my current mindset.
When I talk about the hopes for my kids, I'm still full of passion and hope.
But, somehow, there is something in me that makes me lay longer in bed before I wake up on school days.
My kids fuel me, but maybe now the fuel ran out...
I need more fuel, kids! Help me!

The H in me

They affect how I feel and how I react.
They sway me from my passion, causing me to focus on negativity and let the good goes by.
What if the decisions I've made before this was all because of them?
What if the decisions to be made in future are decided when they are at work too?
They peak and they dip... making me inconsistent and crazy at times.
I worry because of them, yet happy because of them too!
In a dilemma...
What do I do when the H in me takes over...

See Me After Class - Roxanna Elden

"This book is meant to keep you from getting discouraged when it seems like all those fabulous ideas you learned in training don't work in your own classroom."
"This book is NOT chicken soup for the teacher's soul. It's more like hard liquor for the teacher's soul, because new teachers need something stronger than chicken soup."
"But we need you to stay on your job, and stay sane."

An awesome read. And I am only on chapter 3.
As a teacher, this books will make you feel better knowing there are teachers who have been there, done that, EXACTLY like what you are going through now. That's the awesome part, EXACTLY like what I am going through now. Hence, it is giving me good humour knowing that what I am going through is not just my problem but nearly every new teacher as well. I am terrible, but I am not "specially" terrible. I am not that good at doing a bad job, so don't be so emo about being bad. There are WORSE cases.
It is like reading a diary of your own story, just written by someone else, which makes it really funny as well.

Love it~!

I sel~fish in class

I am selfish and evil and disguised as a teacher.

Muahahahaha~

I taught fractions and did a little survey in class, which indirectly is an ego-booster for myself.

I did a data collection of their favourite subject in school which will lead to writing of fractions and drawing diagrams of the fractions.

Number of students: 20.

Number of students that wrote Maths and ICTL as their favourite subject: 8 and 6, which equals to 14.

I teach them both Maths and ICTL. XP

EGO BOOSTED! FTW!!