will i??

more bumps on the road now... tougher road to walk on...
seem misty as well... hard to see clearly...
heavier load to carry... more burden to bear...
path is still long... no time to smell the roses...
but still...i...
with this situation, will i ever reach my destination??
or should i say, will i reach there..alive??
is there someone who'll guide me?
is there a person who'll remind me??
is there noone who can help me??
or am i too absorbed in my own world, too busy feeling sorry for myself,
that i didn't notice the roses blooming around me...
that i couldn't see all the hands reaching out to me...
that i never really appreciate how blue the sky is...
that i missed out on all the smiles and laughs inviting me to join them...
i hardly ever feel this way, but the way this is going,
my own flaws and faults will drag me down halfway through my journey...
is Time really flying pass me? or is it just me who is not flying with It??
who can answer all these for me???
*wondering...*
i guess... only me...

hmm...??? 0.o

had a creepy experience just now...
on the way back to college with 5 other friends of mine..
walking 2 by 2... my friend n i were last.
guess what?
my friend and i both at the back of the pack, heard a low growling voice or sound or noise or whatever-it-is. it was near n audible enough. not a whisper or so.
first reaction of mine, turn around in defence... i thought it was a bad guy right behind us.
my friend turned too, thinking it was a dog, growling right before it's gonna attack.
guess what again? there was noone there!
instinct? RUN!!
we ran, to the front of the group. As we ran pass our friend at d front, she heard it too! when we were running pass her.
then she asked us whether we heard it or not, cos our running was obviously suspicious, of course...
we sure d#$% heard it!
freaky!!
but then that's all la...
i'm wondering what made that sound... baffles me!
d sound sure gave me a good scare! but it was quite an interestingly mind-boggling experience.

strong and independent! my type of gurlz!

showing a strong side in girls. just how i like it!

been back in college for a week now.
things aren't running very smoothly.
i'm now in a room v 6 occupants including myself.
i'm not complaining, cos thr r worse cases than mine.
btw, dis room cramming thing is gonna last for at least 2 months!!
who'll start cracking soon? who'll survive? who'll turn up to be our hero? can't rili tell...

for me now, life in uni is starting to stabilize. however, v dis condition, things x be running well for too long!
however, let's stick to d +ve side!
i had fun goin out v my coursemates, abc-ing v my frens...
things aren't goin too bad...yet...
hope d not-too-bad stuff lasts!

I am just human...

i'll be goin bec college tomorrow.
2months holiday seem like nothing. is it just me or did i just teleported my self 2 months ahead n ended my hols just like dat? Dang! i wished i had fully used my hols for good, but too late to regret now!
had a lovely "last" gathering on 2nd july v frens bec at home... dunno when v'll ever gather n enjoy ourselves like dat again.
reminiscence is of no use... no matter how hard i wanna turn bec time...
i guess it's time to move on.

already start missing home...
my family, my friends, my bed, my internet access, my car, everything!!!
i guess they're gonna miss me too...

loads of love n thx to my friends for d lovely gifts!
Also, happy birthday to my roommate, kharkhee!(5th July)

My attachment to all that i cherish causes me great pain. That is what keeps me in d wheel of life...Makes me human...

in between 1s n 2nd

to pen after a long break, break = long hol after a year in uni @ long break from blogging.
many things can happen in a second, many things can not happen in a long time... if u get wat i mean.
things that do happen r interesting to be pen down, if u r creative enough.
in between 1s n 2nd year of undergraduate studies, things do happen. difference is whether is i'm liking it or not. that's all.

so... flashbacks:

did a kuanman trip(kuantan-kemaman) Baby Milo gengie in Kemaman

Attack of the cake-famine...Poor cake, didn't stand a chance against those monstrous digging from the spoons. (celebrated birthday for a whole year in a go, blew candles for june-rs, n then re-lighted d candles n did another celebration for d sept-ers n nov-ers, how cool is dat??!! XD)

farewell party for our lovely wini...d ultimate imitator!! gonna miss u girl!

hey! dun judge me for not having family pics... i did spent quality time with my family...

v travelled 2 states n bec in 3days 2 nights! did a mouthwatering steamboat...spent plain family time in front of d idiot-box.

soon... it'll be time to leave home again! T-T

i've already grown into an amazon here... roots n all. lazing ard for 2 whole month fertilized my roots at home... plus quite a field of mushrooms as well!

of course laptop-ing can't be missed out! laptop-ing = include all usage of d laptop; watching movies n dramas, listening to music, internet-surfing, youtube-ing, etc...

k, shout out to a few ppl while i'm here:

- wern, nothing better to wish u, cos u have everything thr already! *envy*

- congrats to my aunt for getting into UM, 7th col.

- happy father's day to my papa!

- thx mom for d BIG BANG Global Warning Tour DVD!

- thx grandma for all d things she did at home. ^-^

- happy birthday to my june-rs: feng n abi aw! XD

when i found my perfect hairstyle...My dreadlocks - GONE!

life's been swell at home...
of course it comes with a price: full time chauffeur, nd to run errands n do chores at home.
other than that, i sleep, eat, watch tv, go online, watch dramas n movies on my laptop, go for drinks n dinners with my buddies, catch up with news n gossips... XD
anything new bout me?? i got a haircut!
my locks...gone in like 15min.
some misunderstanding happened, n d hairdresser misinterpreted my request...
she got a little carried away while holding d scissors, i was a little silly to just have sat thr n say nothing... n result: DISASTER!!
anyway, i knew nothing comes out of screaming at her or myself or trying to glue back my hair.
so, d only way to save everyone n myself from a u-might-turn-into-stone-medusa-kinda-looking-hideous hairstyle is to WAIT!
anyhow, with a few combs here n thr, i manage to rearrange my hair into something more pleasing-looking. =)
gotta hide myself at home for a couple of weeks b4 i could go for meet-ups...XD

2nd sis is kinda in a "escape-from-flu" movie situation now...
glad she's a survivor thr! U GO GIRL!!
lil sis might be performing in skul.. but cos of d uncertain dates, i might not get to watch!! T-T
IT"S MIROTIC!! COM'ON! i wanna watch n go crazy dat nite! pls adjust d dates for me!! XD
dream on...

dat's al for now... Juin, reporting from KayTee.
Thx for reading...